Summer Madness

Forged by summer’s heat.

A new thought has occurred.

Sharing my emotions with your pillow.

I am watching myself on the screen.

Leaving happiness behind the tears.

Growing stronger in spite of this.

Molded by the pain of sadness,

Living daily as I should.

Sometimes even in my madness.

I realize it’s something good.

Jkf

7/15/13

Did it rain this morning?

Seventeen notes of mottled laughter on my window-sill,

The rain said “good morning”

Waking up like coming to, from dental surgery…

First euphoric from the novocaine of sleep.

Then slowly as a returning memory of some forgotten tragedy, the pain peeks in with my consciousness.

Oh yeah, it’s me…remember?

Those seventeen notes,

A sweet wake up call that brought me back to life.

I was so happy playing dead.

Jkf

7/11/13

Good Orderly

This slice of life I am weaving through,

Is all consuming and has me confused.

There’s no retracing every step,

There’s no beginning over again. There’s only one moment’s mistake after the last one.

Each breath is in trepidation,

Each heartbeat is precarious.

If one thinks there is any safety,

One is deluded.

Yet…

We all pretend,

We all proceed,

We all act as if ,

We know.

We don’t.

Drop the pretense,

Drop the face,

Drop the assumptions that we know.

Let go.

Let go.

There is no god.

Let go and let go.

Jkf 7/9/13

Petitions Egress

This pain is deadening as I sit with it.

All else has drained from my existence.

This heart is mountainous and cannot be moved again.

All I feel is weight and sweat.

This ache is shattering as I live with myself.

All I’ve ever known has been replaced.

This breath is moist with regret and fear.

All that used to flow has ebbed.

This life is deafening as I live it.

All spirit has evaporated.

This ancient soul subsides.

JKF

7/2/13