Riverside

I just caught the sun going down,

Elusive as a heartbeat I’m happy to have found.

And as my heart does sometimes sink,

That setting sun is at the brink.

And as the sunset's signals glow,

My waning heart must surely know.

I'm not asleep or fantasizing,

That somewhere off, a sun is rising.

Jkf

1/31/16 o-pen 7/31/95

Dream is a Thief

Beautiful drops lie wet on my lash,

Spoken from heaven and drifted to sash.

Fragrant as breath from lovers I’ve had,

Remembering tears, the proof life is sad.

Unbidden the morning sowing handfuls of grain,

Arresting the convict who slept in my brain.

JKF

1/30/16

o-pen

8/17/95

Streetlamp

I am drifting from light post to light post,

Tethered by the beams that softly toss me on to the next.

Murmuring throne carries me with vision half obscured.

There is a feeling of being lost except for the lamp post connection,

There is also a feeling of warm safety that I’m not sure is justified.

I hear conversation in tiny spurts as it washes over the front seat.

I’m lying on the back seat looking up at the lamp light gently tossing me,

Each one catches the car and cradles it until the next light takes over.

We are traveling home from somewhere I don’t remember and it doesn’t matter.

I am safe. We are going home. It is quiet. For the moment. There is no yelling. There are no tears.

As long as there are streetlamps it should be ok.

JKF

1/30/16

FCK

FCK

Book is empty, mind is slow.

Try to fill it, just won’t go.

Screen is vacant, font is gone.

Try to light it, nothing’s on.

Keyboard frozen, letters wait.

Try to coax it, without hate.

Mind has failed me, page is blank.

Nothing left, in this brain bank.

No hope for me, to get it right.

So it’s over, I’ll say goodnight.

JKF

1/28/16

Rest

I am going to bed now baby,

I am going to sleep.

Won’t you lay down beside me baby,

Rest your hand on my cheek,

For I was lost and afraid now baby,

I just needed a friend,

You appeared like a vision baby,

An stayed with me til the end.

I was meant to be lonely baby,

I was born so weak,

Won’t you kneel down beside my body,

Rest a tear on my cheek.

JKF

1/26/16

Hungry

Empty

Melting sizzle 

Temperature high, preparation

Heat rising to the steel, peaceful 

Sending molecules to space, singing

Elements which alone are nothing, echoing

Communing in my kitchen to feed a hungry soul

JKF

1/25/16

Small Inside

Small Inside

It isn’t enough that I’ve given it all.

It won’t matter much to you

I have only what and who I am

There’s no one else inside.

I’m on the edge of right and wrong

I don’t really care to know.

The world won’t change much, if I do

If I’m this small inside.

JKF

1/24/16

Snowblind

Snowblind

Looking out from underneath my hood of evolution.

I am surprised at all I see,

No hope for sweet solution.

Moving forth into the ice, I sink up to my head.

On my toes so I don’t drown,

One slip and I’ll be dead.

Letting go of all control and sliding off to sleep.

Feels so good it must be right,

This life's not mine to keep.

JKF

1/23/16

Complacently

Complacently

Resisting I am not typing this,

I’m in denial still.

Persisting as I do each day,

I’m holding off the tomb.

I can’t be held accountable,

There just aren’t rules for this.

Not thinking of the words I say,

Not lying there in wait.

My lack of order on the page,

Complacent are my eyes.

Flailing without motioning,

Screaming with no sound.

Apparent is my crumbled state,

My cheek upon the ground.

My burgled will is on display,

Its guts are hanging down.

No resolve to save the day,

The song just ends like this.

JKF

1/22/16

Stone

Stone

Carved from granite, meteor etched, and baked on the sun.

I am.

Expect compassion from a shooting star.

You do.

Pretend a smile and tease a laugh, praying for your life.

That’s you.

Behind a face that understands, you’re wasting every breath.

That’s me.

Gloating all the while you hide.

That’s you.

Holding in my palm your hope.

You guessed it.

Me

JKF

1/21/16

Reign

Reign

You are loving me into oblivion, sweeter than this breath.

Not a chance to resist, no escape from the lure.

I know I will feel like shit when I’m done,

 I don’t seem to care.

I’ve been here before and felt the pain,

I’ve cried myself to sleep.

I’ve sworn off of your nectar, your false entice.

I’ve regurgitated spoil,

You! I will not break.

I cannot give!

You will not suck me down.

I’m smarter than you are, you’re nothing.

My will will win this game.

No, I won’t succumb to you,

I’m stronger than you are.

Sweet, beautiful and so demure,

You think I’m such a crumb.

You’re wrong cause here I stand with you,

I’m showing off my stuff.

I won’t give in, I won’t be had,

You’d think I’d had enough.

JKF

1/20/16

Glen for Glenn.

Looks Like the End

Thank you for the moments I remember and the ones I don’t.

You were always there.

The tears that spill tonight,

are for some other time,

when I was better than I am.

Without your words and melodies, there’d be no me at all.

As life I know the sad belongs as much as joy and so,

My hearts a dam that’s breaking now to let the rivers flow.

JKF

1/19/16

Ridic

Ridic

I can’t seem to grow up

I think I’m mature and then I get lost obsessing about how immature

Someone else is

I’m lost in one of those internal session now

If only they would grow the fuck up, everything would be ok

Just had to say it out loud

Ridiculous

I gotta grow up man

JKF

1/18/16

poem#1

Poem per day. Day #1

I am here and you are not…I like it that way.

Thanks for leaving me alone…makes me feel at ease.

Too bad it took me all these years…to understand my plight.

So sad I wasted so many fears…trying to be you.

This bubble in which I find myself…had my name etched all over it.

Fucking hell I been through…and its always been here.

Day #1 exists so I can go… forward from this breath.

All that matters to me now…is this page and on it words.

JKF

1/17/16