No Thing

No thing

Nothing like a summer rain to set my heart to pumpin’

A crack of thunder and I come, my soul and breath are humpin’

Nothing like the falling drops as clouds explode and crumble,

The flashlight rockets through the sky and yet another rumble.

Nothing like a summer rain, to cleanse my world and me,

Releasing my own thunderstorm, emotions flowing free.

Jkf

8/28/13

Summer Madness

Forged by summer’s heat.

A new thought has occurred.

Sharing my emotions with your pillow.

I am watching myself on the screen.

Leaving happiness behind the tears.

Growing stronger in spite of this.

Molded by the pain of sadness,

Living daily as I should.

Sometimes even in my madness.

I realize it’s something good.

Jkf

7/15/13

Did it rain this morning?

Seventeen notes of mottled laughter on my window-sill,

The rain said “good morning”

Waking up like coming to, from dental surgery…

First euphoric from the novocaine of sleep.

Then slowly as a returning memory of some forgotten tragedy, the pain peeks in with my consciousness.

Oh yeah, it’s me…remember?

Those seventeen notes,

A sweet wake up call that brought me back to life.

I was so happy playing dead.

Jkf

7/11/13

Good Orderly

This slice of life I am weaving through,

Is all consuming and has me confused.

There’s no retracing every step,

There’s no beginning over again. There’s only one moment’s mistake after the last one.

Each breath is in trepidation,

Each heartbeat is precarious.

If one thinks there is any safety,

One is deluded.

Yet…

We all pretend,

We all proceed,

We all act as if ,

We know.

We don’t.

Drop the pretense,

Drop the face,

Drop the assumptions that we know.

Let go.

Let go.

There is no god.

Let go and let go.

Jkf 7/9/13

Petitions Egress

This pain is deadening as I sit with it.

All else has drained from my existence.

This heart is mountainous and cannot be moved again.

All I feel is weight and sweat.

This ache is shattering as I live with myself.

All I’ve ever known has been replaced.

This breath is moist with regret and fear.

All that used to flow has ebbed.

This life is deafening as I live it.

All spirit has evaporated.

This ancient soul subsides.

JKF

7/2/13

Still Life

Still Life

I was putting thoughts down on a page and found myself alive.

Astonished at my fate, I dropped my pen to cry.

Thinking I was gone so many years ago,

Imagine my surprise when I found there was still life.

Exploding into metal and lying on the ground.

My only hope was prayer and I didn’t have the time.

Waking on the journey, a peaceful breath I took,

Then moving back to death, I fell for years to now.

So every waking thought and each amazing breath,

Were figments of my life and clouds before my eyes.

Each seasoned tear and breaking heart,

Only wishes to a child.

I lay there on the road the sirens fading in

Surrounded by the world and cradled in its peace.

That one moment, that short night,

The only real existence,

The last day of my life

JKF

4/14/13

Echoes

Echoes

If I exist at all is in in silence

So as not to disturb another soul

If I am, I am afraid

To be the man I am

I am changing how I look

As I remember vivid details

I am reading form a book that has no rules

Am I reading of the life once lived?

I am a blank slate,

Pages peeling back

Looking for my voice in there

Finding only echoes

JKF

4/13/13

I Alone

I Alone

In my life I am creator

Of all that exists

I am life itself.

Therefore

I

Am

Responsible.

I alone

Allow events to occur

I alone produce

The days of my life.

No longer can I call

On god or any other

In vain or disbelief,

To save me from myself.

JKF

4/10/13

Lamaze

Lamaze for life

Just breathe through the pain

Contractions come and go

Breathe again

It’s good to have a coach right there

Reminding you to breathe

It’s a simple program…

JKF

4/10/13

No-one Lives as I

No-one lives as I…

Inside my mind there are millions if not more…

They raise my roof with their cries…

I am welcomed as a king…

Adored from every region…

Treated with respect and love by all who live and die here…

No-one lives as I…

The universe shouts my name in every language…

I have brides on every shore…

As I voyage on, each sea caresses my face…

I lack nothing and abundance is my code…

The skies open and reveal my face…

There is no place I am afraid…

For fear is my closest friend…

No-one lives as I…

Alone, I am surrounded by love…

My heart breaks with joy each moment…

My soul rides high on the wind…

Darkness guides my vision…

And turmoil warms my skin…

I am complete and whole…

No-one lives as I.

Jkf

4/8/13