In-Joy-In Myself

 

In-Joy-In Myself

 

In a stream of consciousness, I wrote a buncha twos

Seemingly unrelated.

No clue as to how it happened,

I just wrote it, signed it, dated.

 

JKF

2/22/22

Afterlife, Death

 

Afterlife Death

I don’t know and if I did

I’m not sure I would tell you

Death after life isn’t certain

Life after death is not either

I do know that life before death

is debatable

But this I feel as strong as my heartbeat

I am here and whether I’m alive or not.

I will always be here.

There will never be a time that I don’t exist

So take it in and imagine it

You are always going to be here

You are eternal, just as I am

There is no gone, or dead.

We are what makes this life , alive

We are the creators.

We are always alive

Even after death

Even afterlife

Afterlife death

Afterdeath, life.

But, Now

Now is the time to breathe

Now is time to beat

Now is the time to love

There is no other time

This moment

This breath

This is your life, after death and after life.

Now

JKF

1/30/22

And The Blue

 

And the Blue

 

Restless. Discontent. Irritable am I

I didn’t make that up.

But I do know it, I do feel.

And time has taken toll.

I’ve been lonely and I’ve been sad.

I know what each can do.

I don’t pretend to have the rights.

To suffering and pain..

I do however understand.

Life’s no cherry bowl.

Instead, it’s full of everything.

The rosy and the blue.

 

JKF

2/3/2022

Here and There

 

 

Several days ago, I was…

There I was, just there.

Today, much the same is happening…

I am here also.

That’s about the norm for me…

I go from day to day.

I’ve noticed that I’m always there…

And always I am here.

 

JKF

2/1/2022

And Now

 

And Now

 

This is not what I came here for.

There is something else.

Just letting you know that I am here

Just letting you know that I am.

I have been reading your literature,

I have been watching your show

I am not buying in,

I am not going there

I am starting out in a different direction.

I am not following you.

Thanks, but no thanks.

Go ahead

I’m staying here

And now

 

Jkf

1/31/2022

Ready?

 

I’m getting ready..

It’s what I do.

It’s January and you know what that means!

What? No. Not a new year’s resolution, sorry. Not sorry.

I am getting ready again. Every day. Again.

 

What is it with you Americans?

Every year celebrating something that doesn’t exist.

New Year’s day? You mean a new year?

Well that could happen on January 18^th.

February 23^rd.

March 11^th

April 23^rd.

Why January 1^st?

But it's not a year...

it's a day. One.

 

Never mind.

If it needs explaining, just never mind.

 

I’m getting ready. For what, you ask?

Now. That’s it. Now

There is no holiday.

Made up.

There isn’t any day more important than this.

 

I refuse to compare

I refuse to complain

I refuse to celebrate one over the other

 

People

Countries

Days.

I am getting ready for now

And now

And now

By being here and now.

If you don’t understand me

You don’t

I am

Ready

Time For This

 

Allovit

 

There isn’t time for allovit

Yet I add it to the list

The planning every dinner time

The cooking and the lot

I hope to get it done

The cleaning and the dirt

The drinking and the pot

They tell me that I can

Create the life I want

Success and my career

I've got to write it down

The kids and school

The work and love

Prepare me for the worst

The fright and fail

The win and quit

What no one ever tells

Candles and the quiet time

Friends that I could call

Making sure I live my life

Planning and vacation

Arriving and return

The details all a blur

The food the sex

At home or out

Most people claim they do

The cars and gifts

The clothes we wear

The pain of age and atrophy

And every other ill

That no one will admit

The music heard at each event

My eyes still try to read

The things the body does

Our ancient self

Our younger we

The all of everything

The sleep that hides out in the dark

The walking in a daze

The secret never passed

And here we are now at the start

As if we have the map

And yet there’s time for this.

 

JKF

12/5/2021

Gra-Fight

 I've got a pencil-ache, 

It's like a head-ache

But I feel it in my pencil...

I'm sure it will get better.

But for now I feel like lead.

JKF

6/18/21

Mary

Born on this day in ‘39

Loved by so many, mother mine

Some say she’s gone, it’s not my style

‘Cause deep in my heart I feel her smile

jkf

4/26/20

The Light That Breaks

The Light That Breaks

Will you care for me, my self when I am older?

Can I count on you my heart, when I am feeble?

Oh, my dear that lives in fear, can I trust you to believe?

Will you sit with me and save my soul, my love, when I am weary?

Will you be there as I die, and will you cry?

Can I know how much pain you’ll carry, my strength, when I am weak?

In the darkness of my passing, can I feel your love?

Is the light that breaks the silence, all I need to know?

JKF

8/17/18