Know More

I don’t really know anything

It seems as though all

Of the knowing has been taken

Not surprising there is no more knowing

You seem to know it all

JKF

6/18/16

Blind

Blind

I saw a man on crutches

He didn’t see me

Jkf

6/14/16

Make Me

I am bullets

I can kill

I have no soul

I have no will

I need someone

To take my hand

To pull my trigger

And make me land

JKF

6/13/16

Might

If I  could see the beauty in me

In all my imperfection

might not be so self-absorbed

If I could see the beauty in you

In all your imperfection

JKF

6/13/16

Enough

I have fear

I have felt its pain

It looks like anger

I know the difference

I don’t have enough hate to use it

I have been hurt

I swore I would die

I wanted to return the hurt

To inflict my suffering

I don’t have enough hate to use it

I have a gun

It has bullets

It works

I have fired it

I don’t have enough hate to use it

JKF

6/13/16

N

o river is the same

o sky

o breath

o moment

One

thing

time

always

does

Whatever

is

becomes

what

was

jkf

5/26/16

Wabi-Sabi



Sadness

turns to presence

Without excitement

Being without doing

And knowing without fixing



Jkf

5/21/16

Long I Wonder

I wondered what the last days of my life would be,

I wondered what I would do,

All along I wondered.

Then you took me out to sea.

I was floating wondering how long the end of life would be.

Then my eyes while they were floating,

Came to see that you were me.

JKF

5/5/16

Unspoken

I start with a broken leg,

Travels through my spine.

I feel like a fragile egg,

Dancin’ on the edge of time.

I don’t know why I’ve survived,

With a heart that is so broken,

I wish I could start again,

All the words I’ve said unspoken.

Jkf

4/23/16

In Your Wake

Something in my head tells me you’re gone

It’s like a silent space that empties out

A screw that’s missing, a hollow spot

I am filled when you are here

I am not so much when missing you

Vacantly I travel the same roads

But they seem to echo differently

They seem to sell me so short

They seem to have nothing

Them you appear in my horizon

Suddenly I am plugged back in

My breath returns with such a noticeable gasp

I didn’t recognize how much was lost from my day

Now I remember how it feels to feel.

Oh my god, I’d forgotten you

How could I have been pretending so well

I wonder if it was a visible effect

Did everyone but me know it

The aching I didn’t feel is gone

Replaced by you with you and for you

Pleasure has arrived with your return

A calming peace presides in my head

I’m floating on the walk and life begins to beat

My surprise is that I managed to ignore

The gaping hole you left in your wake

I promise to always carry you

I vow to never let you go

Jkf 3/30/16

Return

I offer sweet words of wisdom to myself

And gently give them to you

In this moment everything is perfect

You are ok

You’re more than ok

You are perfect

Life is this breath and this touch

Feel the air going into your body

Enjoy that

That is all there is

Whenever you feel any pain, anywhere, just

 return to the breath

There is nothing that can take you away from

 the truth

It is only an illusion

There is no need to believe it

Return to the breath

And again

Jkf

3/14/16

Breath

Breath

It’s late and I’m still up,

I’m thinking about everything and I’m not sure of anything.

I do not live in this world of dreams, I live in the world of wakefulness.

When I sleep I struggle with the laws of nature because I am asleep.

Upon awakening I am resuscitated and I breathe again this full life.

There is no better taste than the one that accompanies the air I breathe.

I seem to speak of breath often

I seem to breathe often

It is the only thing I really care about.

JKF

2/27/16

Reckoning

I am lost in translation from a boy to a man

My dad has left the building and I’m trying to fill in

Don’t recommend this to the faint of heart

It’s just a little reckoning and I’m dead from the start

Peace be with you, and also with you

I haven’t a clue where all that peace went

Try to envision the lack of neglect

Try to imprison the face and the neck

I just don’t have it, the thing I once had

I can even remember what it felt like, it must have been bad

I wished for its ease and discovered the magic

Of wishing and getting your wish to come true

Reckoning the distance that my hand has to travel from navel to brain and back to the gavel

Life isn’t fair to the man who is aged and life doesn’t care about the child who had died

Peace on your asshole and let go of the life

It’s not automatic and might end this very night

Get what you can when the desire is present

When that shit is gone you won’t know what hit you

This is your warning, I didn’t get mine

This is your warning one very last time

JKF

2/20/16

Shaken

I am shaken by your power

I am rattled by your breath

I have slipped into another realm

Of life and pain and sin

And still I tremble

With bodies hidden and voices pure you rendered my mouth dry

From the laughter through the closing cries

In one second I was transported to another land and time

I cannot know if pain or joy was burning in my eye

In an hour my soul had been removed and another took my hand

Your bodies moved me, your voices touched me

The pain you lived was mine

I want to crawl with you and sing with you and throw my life away

So fierce was your loyalty to each other and yourselves

I was moved

And still I tremble 

JKF 2/19/16

Sweet Dreams

Long…slow…the breath

The searing summer night

Warm as the roll of a special love

Crazed beyond

                             Comprehension

I drift        to      you

It’s hot enough to melt the clouds

They drip to the grass and smolder

Imagination sparked,             I float away

Chasing your scent, I seek…the heat

It’s a hot charcoal flame that darkens my conscience

I feel your touch and I know I’m close

                                     The warmth tells me

I’ve made it. I harness you and hold on tight

You rock me into space…

I come to and realize I’ve been dreaming

You’re not with me and            I’m insane

JKF

2/5/16

Shroud

I like thunder

and

rain

I feel comfy

with

pain

I like lightening

and

fire

How it sparks my

De

sire

Home is safety

and

calm

Where the heart feels

its

balm

Like a house mouse

in

hole

I peer out from

my

soul

JKF

2/2/16

1/27/88

Riverside

I just caught the sun going down,

Elusive as a heartbeat I’m happy to have found.

And as my heart does sometimes sink,

That setting sun is at the brink.

And as the sunset's signals glow,

My waning heart must surely know.

I'm not asleep or fantasizing,

That somewhere off, a sun is rising.

Jkf

1/31/16 o-pen 7/31/95

Dream is a Thief

Beautiful drops lie wet on my lash,

Spoken from heaven and drifted to sash.

Fragrant as breath from lovers I’ve had,

Remembering tears, the proof life is sad.

Unbidden the morning sowing handfuls of grain,

Arresting the convict who slept in my brain.

JKF

1/30/16

o-pen

8/17/95

Streetlamp

I am drifting from light post to light post,

Tethered by the beams that softly toss me on to the next.

Murmuring throne carries me with vision half obscured.

There is a feeling of being lost except for the lamp post connection,

There is also a feeling of warm safety that I’m not sure is justified.

I hear conversation in tiny spurts as it washes over the front seat.

I’m lying on the back seat looking up at the lamp light gently tossing me,

Each one catches the car and cradles it until the next light takes over.

We are traveling home from somewhere I don’t remember and it doesn’t matter.

I am safe. We are going home. It is quiet. For the moment. There is no yelling. There are no tears.

As long as there are streetlamps it should be ok.

JKF

1/30/16

FCK

FCK

Book is empty, mind is slow.

Try to fill it, just won’t go.

Screen is vacant, font is gone.

Try to light it, nothing’s on.

Keyboard frozen, letters wait.

Try to coax it, without hate.

Mind has failed me, page is blank.

Nothing left, in this brain bank.

No hope for me, to get it right.

So it’s over, I’ll say goodnight.

JKF

1/28/16

Rest

I am going to bed now baby,

I am going to sleep.

Won’t you lay down beside me baby,

Rest your hand on my cheek,

For I was lost and afraid now baby,

I just needed a friend,

You appeared like a vision baby,

An stayed with me til the end.

I was meant to be lonely baby,

I was born so weak,

Won’t you kneel down beside my body,

Rest a tear on my cheek.

JKF

1/26/16

Hungry

Empty

Melting sizzle 

Temperature high, preparation

Heat rising to the steel, peaceful 

Sending molecules to space, singing

Elements which alone are nothing, echoing

Communing in my kitchen to feed a hungry soul

JKF

1/25/16

Small Inside

Small Inside

It isn’t enough that I’ve given it all.

It won’t matter much to you

I have only what and who I am

There’s no one else inside.

I’m on the edge of right and wrong

I don’t really care to know.

The world won’t change much, if I do

If I’m this small inside.

JKF

1/24/16

Snowblind

Snowblind

Looking out from underneath my hood of evolution.

I am surprised at all I see,

No hope for sweet solution.

Moving forth into the ice, I sink up to my head.

On my toes so I don’t drown,

One slip and I’ll be dead.

Letting go of all control and sliding off to sleep.

Feels so good it must be right,

This life's not mine to keep.

JKF

1/23/16

Complacently

Complacently

Resisting I am not typing this,

I’m in denial still.

Persisting as I do each day,

I’m holding off the tomb.

I can’t be held accountable,

There just aren’t rules for this.

Not thinking of the words I say,

Not lying there in wait.

My lack of order on the page,

Complacent are my eyes.

Flailing without motioning,

Screaming with no sound.

Apparent is my crumbled state,

My cheek upon the ground.

My burgled will is on display,

Its guts are hanging down.

No resolve to save the day,

The song just ends like this.

JKF

1/22/16

Stone

Stone

Carved from granite, meteor etched, and baked on the sun.

I am.

Expect compassion from a shooting star.

You do.

Pretend a smile and tease a laugh, praying for your life.

That’s you.

Behind a face that understands, you’re wasting every breath.

That’s me.

Gloating all the while you hide.

That’s you.

Holding in my palm your hope.

You guessed it.

Me

JKF

1/21/16

Reign

Reign

You are loving me into oblivion, sweeter than this breath.

Not a chance to resist, no escape from the lure.

I know I will feel like shit when I’m done,

 I don’t seem to care.

I’ve been here before and felt the pain,

I’ve cried myself to sleep.

I’ve sworn off of your nectar, your false entice.

I’ve regurgitated spoil,

You! I will not break.

I cannot give!

You will not suck me down.

I’m smarter than you are, you’re nothing.

My will will win this game.

No, I won’t succumb to you,

I’m stronger than you are.

Sweet, beautiful and so demure,

You think I’m such a crumb.

You’re wrong cause here I stand with you,

I’m showing off my stuff.

I won’t give in, I won’t be had,

You’d think I’d had enough.

JKF

1/20/16