Morning Rain

Morning Rain

As I sit here in the rain

And the thunder calls my name

So the rain dries up my plans

Do I know just who I am

 I cry for all that’s lost

As I die

 I decay

And I rot away

Jkf

5/30/11

IN MY DREAMS

IN MY DREAMS

You’re gone

I can't forget your face

Why do you haunt my dreams,

I can’t see what good it does

If I could touch your

 lips

 your hands

your tears

If I could come home to you and let you hold me in your arms

If you were really here to keep me safe

I might believe you then

I might just trust you again

I might believe you when

In my dreams you say I love you

JKF

5/20/11

Ah-Motherfucking-ha!

NICE

I always try to be nice, it’s something my mother taught me

I learned from a very young age that people like you more if you are.

I also found out that being nice was a bit safer and less likely to get me into a fight.

So I always try to be nice…On the outside!

The inner me is crying his eyes out begging to be heard above the cacophonous bullshit.

I thought that being nice was “good” and not being nice wasn’t.

Now I realize that I was really learning to hide my feelings

I thought that if I kept them in, all would be ok.

Well, guess what?  That doesn’t work!

Because now I have forgotten who the fuck I am.

Am I the nice person who doesn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings?

Or Am I the person inside who is screaming obscenities at the world because I have become invisible?

Aha!

Ah mother-fucking Ha!

JKF

5/19/11

Contiguity

Contiguity

We are so close together we almost touch

Our skin is in the space between us, that’s all.

Breathing requires sharing our air

I breathe in as you breathe out.

If and when you move, I must

The friction causes heat.

We are to each other

Even with our eyes wide open, blind.

Without the other in our face

You’d never know we’re here.

Feeling alone suggests there is

Another way to feel.

JKF

5/15/11

LOSER

                                                                                                                       I AM A LOSER   IN                                                                               THE RACE OF LOVE…

All of the others have passed me at one time or another.

I see tail lights, bumpers, and smell their exhaust.

Is there any hope of even finishing?

I keep thinking that just up ahead there will be crashes and everyone else will be dead.

Then I can win the race to the finish.

Why think it’s at the expense of the others that I must win?

Mine is the saddest excuse for a life that anyone ever had.

Me and the I, that I once knew are all feeling very sorry, for ourselves, of course.

Fuck you for listening.

JAW

5/15/11

LIVE

LIVE

In the event of an emergency you will be instructed where to turn on your radio dial.

Do not be alarmed, this is an actual life and it is meant to be lived.

Please begin immediately breathing in and breathing out as if you are alive.

As you will notice, there are no effective exit strategies.

All attempts to bypass living will result in living a life less than complete.

Remember to live on a daily basis or your rights to life will be negotiated.

Under no circumstances should you attempt to live the life of someone else.

Imitations will not be tolerated and will result in an unhappy reproduction.

If you find yourself alone and lonely, remember, you are not alone.

Simply open your eyes and notice that there are many other people.

As soon as possible, wake up and get on with your life, it is still going on.

Even if it seems unsatisfactory, it is your life and you are responsible for it.

Don’t be afraid any more, now that you know it is progressing normally.

Keep breathing and you will stay alive, keep living and you are doing well.

Very well, in fact you seem to be very well adjusted to this life.

Congratulations.

JKF

5/15/11

Alone

Don’t look at me I’m here alone

Please don’t say a word.

Turn out the light and close the door

As if you haven’t heard.

I’m nothing and I’ll never be

Enough to warrant love.

So let me sit here and decay

Earth falling from above.

JAW

5/13/11

Who The Fuck Am I

Who the fuck am I

To say what I should do

When what I really want

Don’t have a fucking clue

Dark space around my eyes

I’m squinting through the smoke

You tell me that I’m lost

I say no fucking joke

Just kill me put me down

I’m no use in this state

It’s been too fucking long

This last one sealed my fate

JAW

5/10/11

In Your Embrace

In your embrace I come apart

Soul is blackened by desire

My heart explodes in space.

Take me now and live forever

I’m nestled in for good.

For all your needs I will provide

You’ll never leave my realm.

In your embrace I come apart,

You’re mine in ecstacy.

5/7/11

jaw

Lying

I am lying

dead

tonight

at your hands

and feet

Dried and crusted

sand-filled mouth

Open eyes are blind

To

dust I shall return

It is me you rip to shreds

I bleed upon your earth

Hopelessness

Misunderstood

A missing chance

To heal

Something in

My soul-less

Gut

Knows wrong

    When wrong's

      Called right    

jkf

5/3/11